By Pam Scott, associate treasurer/risk manager
Ed. Note: Pam Scott finds connections with God most often in journaling and walks in nature. With a melancholy soul, Pam writes poetry from deep dark emotion, resolving the struggle with God’s unending love and ultimate resolution. Here is her poem titled "Emotions."
The anger rises in me so often lately
Things that I can’t seem to control
We often say be still and listen
Because God speaks in the still small voice
I know though that God also speaks in the noise
He speaks in the thunder of a failure
He speaks in the screams of grief
He speaks over the clangs of voices that just go blah blah blah without any action
God is a God of the fiercest emotions
The most passionate feelings
The Mama Junco in my back yard
Carefully builds her nest
Lays her four little eggs
Hatches and feeds them
And they are destroyed by a cat or a raccoon.
She finds a new place and builds a nest again.
Because of their vulnerability
Juncos often have 4 or 5 nests a year
The instinct inside of them is to build their nest on the ground
God sees the Junco, but the instinct inside of them never changes.
It never teaches them to build in higher or more protected spaces.
It never teaches them that they have the capacity to protect their children.
When the hot lava starts to burn in my chest
Threatening to boil from my mouth
God says I am here with you.
I can calm the storm
I will calm the storm
You are more than a sweet little Junco
That just follows the program inside their brain
The emotions are here to help you process and feel life
And to teach you to move forward
They make you alive and passionate
They allow you to learn and grown
Emotions give you the capacity to be a better person
More thoughtful, more disciplined, more loving, more patient
And I, God, am with you
Because I love you above all.
My heart pounds as I think of this.
It trembles within me.
Listen carefully to the thunder of God’s voice
as it rolls from his mouth.
It rolls across the heavens,
and his lightning flashes in every direction.
Then comes the roaring of the thunder—
the tremendous voice of his majesty.
He does not restrain it when he speaks.
God’s voice is glorious in the thunder.
We can’t even imagine the greatness of his power.
Pick an emotion and choose whether you would like to journal, write a poem, write a skit, or have a family discussion - or all of the above! Look up Bible verses on the chosen emotion. What does the Bible have to say about this emotion? What can you learn from Bible characters who experienced the same or similar emotion?
Lord, thank You that You are present in the midst of all our emotions. You deeply love us and care for us - bringing us the right conversations, right resources, right thoughts when they are needed most. If there is a breakthrough needed with our family's emotions, Lord, please show us Your truth and transform our hearts and minds. Amen.